Awalnya stalking.

Jadi karna kebanyakan kuota dan lagi nyari bahan hiburan (i used to make my bf's old story for jokes) gue ngestalk akun mantannya pacar gue yang sejarah move on nya paling lama.

Fafa told me a lot of their story.

I've read all of their messages.

It was funny because i've NEVER called by 'yang' or 'sweetie' like he did with his ex.

A bit envy but, idc. Udah pernah juga bilang dan jadi kayak geli gitu heheh

k then, by scrolling her timeline, i found something that fafa didn't tell me before.

their photo.

i'm trying to laugh....................................but ended up with crying.

"waratte, waratte, hoho ga itaku naru made"

suddenly remember how jealous i was. big tweetwar, etc. and I just realized that i still hate the old him.

well, after done stalking her 100000000000+ selfies, i go to twitter by searching their accounts.

I found SO MANY mentions (or sweet mentions) they did after fafa date me.

FOR GOD'S SAKE HOW STUPID I WAS!!!!

Fafa and I have a bad...........history, very bad history. And I found these mentions after 34 months dating.
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my eyes got swollen and i keep scrolling. Found their old sweet mentions before broke up, many supports, they just like a little lovebird before i came to ruin everything.


so sorry.

Heavy breathing. I deserve this feeling. This reality. And show must go on.

but I can't stop crying.

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so unfair that i DONT HAVE ANY sweet love moments, boyfriend thingy, or smth.

I was a HARDCORE NTR victim, twice (or three times) with person i called bestfriend. I don't ever feel like have a boyfriend before. This is so unfair.